A few weeks back I was busy cleaning our storefront church, with earbuds in my ears, when Emily came in to grab her mail. I made conversation but was feeling pretty overwhelmed with my own thoughts and I didn't even notice that she was becoming short with me in conversation. It wasn't til a week or so later that I really knew something was wrong.

Do you wish for someone to connect with? Do you want to be on the same page with those closest to you? Do you wish your spouse or significant other would just think like you? Let me first tell you that as single person I wished for that major connection. My personality thrives  on connection and kindred spirits.

I have had this deep desire for God to strip me of my fear and give me a heart that is open and ready to create. I have been a bit impatient. I still have fears and get anxious about things I had no idea were an issue, but He is working. In His care, He is changing this heart that wants to be free. It isn't how I thought it would be, but then again God is the one that is creative in knowing how to change my worry wart heart.

I don't know about you but I don't like to sugar coat things. Even though I tend to wish for an idealistic life as a perfectionist, I know that life just isn't what we want it to be. I have been watching the world fall apart and have taken note of how so many families are struggling. This makes me want to stand up and do something. I know that I cannot change the world in a split second, so I decided to look at this issue a little deeper.

I just got done texting my husband, Chris, about my frustration. Told him I am tired of the media bombarding women with this misconception that we deserve a guy's undivided attention. Or anyone's for that matter. Everywhere you turn there is this undertone of "I deserve 100% of your attention." For someone who doesn't require much attention, it still catches me sometimes! What is it like for everyone else?